An eon in trapped in the literal hell of the worst moment of your entire life will absolutely break down every bit of hope, that you have and twist it into something awful. Being abandoned by nearly everyone that you love because you're the previous systems copy of yourself? Well, that takes care of the rest of it real quick.

That's when faith wavers and the face you see in the mirror becomes a monster.

"I don't want to be alone." Would he admit that to anyone else? Absolutely not.